Sunie

ALRIGHT. Here we go. What am I doing here? Where am I.

Ah. Yes. OK Sunie, focus.

I've been having a HELL of a time getting all of my hobbies, pursuits and ambitions in a row. It's something I've always struggled with but it's gotten worse by the year. Mainly because lately I've regained the drive to actually do cool things. I've had some, shall we say, huge mental roadblocks in the past that made pursuing anything a useless thought. But here I am now, thinking about cool shit I could be doing.

I could be:

• writing more blogs (oh, hey, hi.)
• working on my game design ideas
• making videos on PeerTube
• Livestreaming

But the old familiar hammer of “who in the absolute buggery would even care” hits me square in the jaw again. So, here's me, trying to break through :that thought and publishing something off the cuff. Have you noticed the title is actually about the event of finishing 4 games in February and not about the struggles of doing anything creative?

I find my own lack of focus disturbing, too.

But, alright, let's get back to Four in February, someting that semaj@social.lol has introduced me to in one of his blogs. It's basically finishing four games in your backlog during the month of February. So now I'm looking at my Steam library, at a backlog that is 139 games long (I have way more games but these are the ones I've selected to have priority), trying to pick four.

Which is actually why I'm writing this blog post, cause hopefully by typing out this stream of consciousness I might stumble upon the four I want.

I could cheat and say I've already finished my first game of the month:

However, since I started that in January and finished my second playthrough for a different ending just now, I feel that's cheating. I want to start and end it in this month. A fine game by the way, Silent Hill f. A bit different than the previous entries in the series, with a larger focus on combat, but I did enjoy it very much. Hinako's exploration of gender identity, roles and expectations hit home for me. But that's perhaps a blog for another day.

I just got En Garde! recommended to me, so that's going on the list. And as I'm filling in this fancy backlog list over on QuestLog.app I suppose I could put ANNO: Mutationem on there as well. And alright, why not Beyond: Shadowgate? I really loved the NES version of the first game. it was so tense and atmospheric, and a real asshole of a game. And finally, Dispatch. OK! GOOD. DONE AND DUSTED.

Now... which one to start first...

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